Welcome to the Panthers Mind

... From your good buddy Kitt,

Ah good times...
Well another year is already underway and things could be better, but could always be worse so i once again find myself here talking at the wall. I have begun as of late to become really tired. I don't really know what to say bout it but it has been kind of worrying me a bit. Time has always been something that i wasn't a fan of. Just the fact that it never seems to move the way you want it too kind of bothers me. Good times move to fast while bad ones never seem to end. Like silent weight on ones back it sits there waiting for you to notice and shrug it off. In my case though i don't feel like i can find what's weighing me down. General depression is something that has been said to come with the incoming spring season, i've always liked the spring personally.
i've had time recently to get back out to Jersey and see some people. i do not know why people have the need for others to help rationalize another's worries and thoughts but it sure as hell can be a big help. with all the nothing going on in the "city that never sleeps" its nice to know there are still things to do, even if they do take a bit of time on the train to get to.

*groans* ugh, i don't even know why i get in these moods. General dissatisfaction is such an ugly feeling. Did you ever have a day where everything is all right but you just can't get psyched for the day as you normally do? i have been getting them alot lately. it has left me real bitchy in the morning. This morning i got in an argument bout putting the seat down! i mean, do the math: Dick + Dick = not having to ever have that fight! i feel really bad because i am just a beast most mornings and i can't help it.

If this is symptom of the season then i pray, and i can't believe i'm saying this, that summer comes soon and i can be grumpy for the right reasons, cause it's HOT AND STICKY! i can sit in my room and stare at all my favorate coats and just cry till fall. No worries, the tears will help to keep me cool.

May you be having better days than your friend and humble narrator,
Kitt.59

Yea so im in the office waiting for my jury number to be called so that i can go in and convict this lying murdering cocksucker. Meh, just kidding i sureley will listen and keep my mind open for this case and justice will be the governing factor in my mind.

as i said...this bitch is going down. :p

YES!!!,
Now I can finally burn my all my bras!!!!

Sweeeeeeeeeeet Democracy *runs off to undies drawer*



Even Castro is having a good week :D


Congrats big guy, you finally did it man.

To sum things up as far as things go: this happened to me last night, i'm not mad anymore but was furious then, yes i know its my own fault for falling for it so bad but i have always been a sucker for new experiences and i also have never done well with dissappointment. heres the convo in full i had with my pal worlfgang. it starts with me and ech new line is the tradeoff. if you ever loose place the one "lol"ing is not me, i had nothing to laugh about.

im in new orleans right now fucker

Da fuck?

vacationing right now
well not right now
drunk and pissed right now

In New Orleans? You got jipped
And why pissed?

just had my first private room excursion at a srtip club.
sry btw if i mistype but i dont give a fuck to correct myself

LOL
So yeah, what happened?

to sum it up....
have you ever slapped someone on the ass?

Yeah

have you ever done it for 20$ a pop!!!!

LOL

so as you can see dropping close to 400$ only to have my belt loosened has put me in the foulest mood i have ever been in, and my typing will steadily decrease as i am only drinking to stop me from going to the lobby and punching out the recptionist just to make me feel better.

LOL
You should go GTA IV on those fuckers

dude it was everything i could do to just walk out of the place and come back to my hotel
i wanna fight someone right now, nyone!
anyone*
just to make the pain of this frustration go away

Thats no good

but its true.
and you know me
honesty first

something. i don't know i mean damn, can't be funny and well thought out all the time can i?

but anyway.

so i sit here and i don't know what is really motivating me to type at all. As many know i'm not much for this kinda stuff, the typing to essentially myself or to anyone who is listening. I figure most of the time i say things here for a lack of wanting to confront things and then people can ask me or not on their own time. Not to get sidetracked with the nothing i was going to mention though, on with the show as they say.
i have been really tired of life as of late, and not that "oh god my life is miserable, nobody loves me, i dont know what to do with my time" kinda crap. i truly wake up each day wanting no more from myself than i wanted... hell at this point its been a year now since i really took a good step forward. i have been spending my time and money doing thing after thing that ensures that i will stay exactly where i am currently and i must say in looking at it i really do feel a fool.

to be honest i post this mostly as a hollow excuse for not responding to those who have been trying to reach me. i can't say its a good one or not, and i'm even more sorry to say it isn't over. i need to sort my head out. and i need to figure out where i wanna be and do some growing up. i love all of you and no matter where i end up when i come out of my hole.

as an early post script i will still be doing my best to attend tziporas birthday, i think i can manage one last hangout until i put myself under house arrest.

until next time kids,
Kitt.59

LoL, i don't even really know why i do posts like this. Most are so used to me not posting that when i finally do there are never any comments. To be honest the only real reason i am regaling you with the tales of my last week or so is really for me to see if i can remember everything in sequence, also i want to see if i can figure out how that LJ Cut thing works.

First and foremost AC this year would be the top on my list of things that have since passed that i have been a part of. I got to hang out with some really cool people this year and though i was not able to hang with the Hudson Furs this year as they were all gone via some kind of either a monetary, home issue or the general feeling of not wanting to go. Normally i would say this is a bad thing and i was sad they diddnt go. No offense meant to them because you all kow i love you but i have to say that this year this was not the case. The time not being locked i found myself with a ton of free time wich i used to my fullest advantage, doing thins that i normally would not have been able to. Finally got to spend some time with Huskie and all the girls. Here is my play by play of all the girls there:
Huskie: You know i love you girl cant wait to see you soon, though you did try to get us in trouble! :p
Jolyn: So great gettin to see ya, you know i love you girl, remember if your and my boy explode randomly i call dibs <3 =^.^= <3
Dreamaria: Loved getting to hang with you and get to know you better. Cant wait to see you at the party
Moe: Great meetin ya, but where did you go?!?! i saw you the first night then you vanished
Crow: you ruled! plain and simple...still need to get off my lazy ass and send those pictures of ya :p
LaLa: So great meeting you, hope you enjoyed your first con

But sadly Ac Had to end and we needed to head back home, so then what did i do?
went to party On Long island for 4 days thats what!!!!
go to chill with my pal Joe and a bunch of my friends form long island as well as see my fam and friends.

Then i came back to NYC for Candyball in Brooklyn...
Long Stroy short DJ Genki and his boy Haze are over at my place...more on that tommorow

till then
Kitt.59

I Have needed to update but now is really not the time. I am currently at my dads place and my phone i broken once again so i just wanted anyone who has been having trouble reaching me to not call incessantly, and to please not flood my phone with messages because something is so important that 1 voicemail would not do. If you know anything about me by now you should know i don't answer my voicemail anyway.

But anyway i will be home tommorow and will have a big AC post for everyone to drool over.

Till then all,
Kitt

George Carlin has passed away...
...the world has become a more silent place.

Well anyway hello hello to all out there in internet land. Tis the panther back for another round on the ol LJ. so lets see what i can remember enough of to post to.

Wolfgang and i got the chance to go see up to CT to see bearknight and the gang a week or so ago [is really short on the memory]. I must of corse say i always have a real great time when i go up to see everyone in CT, i already miss all of you. I had not been bowling in about 4 years and it was so much fun to play with chatty kathy and all the gang :p

as many can tell from the header i do have something to say about the whole quentincoyote and buckyrabbit thing. as far as where this is going i can say it is going to be nice. *sighs* i really thought all of this was over. but this is all i really want. All of you on the furry LJ drama tornado can make yourselves useful and pass it along to those two. all i really want is my name not mentioned. i don't think its much to ask not to get called anymore because i knew the kid. I've recently found out that my name has been mentioned on lj, and my real name was up in bucky's article. i don't know about all of you but i dont want my name mentioned as relates to this anymore. It's stupid frankly and i would like to think i have nothing to do with this...because i don't.

I really miss the old days. When there was a problem you just beat the shit out of someone and move on. A bit barbaric i know, but damn it was efficient.

Anyways all i can say is i hope it ends soon. Just remember folks, when you are only getting mad because people are feeding you stuff to be mad about, well thats when you have become one of those people who are a just a tool of drama. When it gets to that point [in case you are wondering] thats the time to let it go.

Heres the real feeling i have about this whole thing...
Now you may be wondering to your little selves, "why does kitt have anything other than an "i hate bucky attitude" Some might even be wondering why i am allowed to have an opinion. After all i had nothing taken from me and i should be sympathetic to my friends Quentin and Falconeo. Truth is i am, i really am. Please just take that for what its worth because i am not about to be nice about the way alot of this was carried out so far and is being carried out now. The reason, in truth that i am mentioning this is twofold. the first being that you all are my friends and more so that my enemies, my friends will always receive the harsher scrutiny for stupid behavior. The reason being because i expect the friends i have to be the more intelligent ones. The second being i want everyone out the to know that i know what is going on. I know, Bucky stole from Q and Fal he was staying at my place before the christmas party at Tigras place, which if you remember is the place where the material came for the first post about theft came from. I am saying this so people will STOP CALLING MY HOUSE AND MY CELLPHONE. People for the last 2 weeks have been flooding my phone with texts and messages to "make sure i was safe". Guys he is a thief not an ax murderer. i don't want sympathy calls about how my friend ruined his life, how i need to start hating him too, how i need to make t shirts, assemble possies, or start lighting torches and getting pitchforks at wholesale prices. If one more person calls me to give me an update on the Bucky situation with anything other than "they found him" i am losing their phone number. Yes i am mad he did this, yes i want him to receive punishment for lying to all of us and deceiving our trust. With that said tho lets take a review on how we have been handling this so far and maybe there will be some clarity on why we have been coming up with nothing.

The Original Post:
Said what needed to be said to let people know what was going on and to let some method of verification to the goings on of the missing items when he was living there. For my taste it was a bit overdone. I really cant feel that one can lose faith and trust in anyone you meet from here on in because one person betrayed your trust. and that bit about "should i let him do that? NO! i wont let him take that too!" maybe it's the writer in me but that was simply corny and dude i hate to make fun like that cause i know its inappropriate but goddamn man. You are'nt a waif 68 pound girl who got raped and never saw it coming. You are an intelligent man Q, who not only had nagging reasons to distrust him before the first stealing from you place happened. You also had the the whole Titan situation. By this point in time you should have been more apt to notice things like this happening again. i have to say it was a bad judgement to let him stay there alone. Are you alone in that no, i did it too but not for the length of time and not with the freedoms I'm sure he had there.

The Wanted Poster:
For those who didd'nt see my post on NK's livejournal i already made a post on this. with that said i will be brief. The poster itself like i had said was supposed to be a good thing. If you are in to rabble rousing witch hunts or have a wild wild west fetish, i say mission accomplished. I mean seriously, a WANTED poster. this isn't the oregon trail nor is it 4th grade, i think. all this did was raise the heat on LJ and in the furry fandom with i don't know if you all know is a very small bit of the demographic. We are all over the place sure but if one just moves out of the he can find refuge with those who not only will help him but will support him. If he was to work his way into an new friend set and then we come knocking i wonder who they would back. Would you turn in your friend if you thought you could trust him to someone who is telling you what your friend says are lies. I believe the next thing i'm supposed to say is i rest my case. Let the cops do their work and don't give this kid any more reason to hide than he already has and, who knows. mabye we will actually catch him.

To the commentors:
I wanna say a couple things in closing to the people who have been sommenting to the journals that have been written about Bucky. If you have read this far i'm sure you will see it through to read this and if you have posted something about this situation to the degree of "if he come through my town he is a dead man q" on a journal this is ESPECIALLY for you.
SHUT
THE
FUCK
UP
...any questions?
You people are no help at all, you aren,t even good for false hope. You aren't influential and you certainly aren't tough. If a handful of any of you have ever even got off your couches and turned off the TV you may get into enough of a real life confrontation to actually have a fight let alone win one. You do nothing more than to add the useless filler that furries add to every drama situation when the lines are drawn. Oh yea, and if you are mad at me for questioning you manhood message me, i would be glad to hear your formal complaints. I will be busy actually trying to reach Bucky and get him to turn himself in like he should. You know, Actually helping.

Men do happen now and again.
To be found naked on the beach.
The sand embracing them in their comforting arms.
We have grown not to question the men.
For they do not remember their mothers.
Only the tides play in their ears.
The sound of the gentle sea
Of their only mother.
Of their home...

Now its time for the story that birthed this witty little bit of prose.
I went out fising with one of my good work pals seeing as how we made it out of work early.

That was hours ago...

Now we are on a beach on city island. Don't ask me where I am exactly, because honestly I don't have a clue.

He's drunk as a skunk. Forget that he is as drunk as a guy who drank a whole bottle of bacardi limon! To top that we are on this little beach now and he is semiconcious and NAKED! Normally I would say hey, bust out the fancy beach towel and let's party but that's not the case. I won't say I am not thinking about it I'm just saying I would have to club him out with a rock to have a chance besides I do like a level of self control and that's clearly absent in this case.

So wish me luck y'all I hope to get back somehow after I'm done babysitting. Hell, at least I have tommorow off right?

I miss my boy right now so bad. Justin I love you why is everyone else stupid?

I'm not holding my breath for a good or even acceptable answer. So...

Till next time
Kitt59

Is it really already. The week has been moving a little to fast for me recently. I mean I'm all for the passage of time but god damn. And the scary truth is that I really haven't gotten all that much accomplished this week. Mostly been at home or enjoyin the company of bucky and rensis. They went out to the movies the other day but I had to stay home to wait for the cable guy. Meh I guess all things considered I have been ok. I mean my foot stoped aching and the briuse I had on it is all gone now, I am on my way to pick up another paycheck from the garden (actually I think I have two today, Huzzah! I am in good health and have been havin company recently so all in all life is good.

Well about to go underground so that's all for now

Till next time
Kitt.59

Dear god...
I gotta be honest with everyone. That was officially the first party I ever threw under my own roof. I diddnt really know how it was going to go or who was going to be able to come but I have to say I was surprised in the best of ways. I had a great time and I really hope everyone else did too. Finally got my grill some use for more than just three people and I have to say that it really felt great.

To everyone who came, lesee if I can remember the whole crew. Tigra, it was amazing to see you again. It had been way too long. Amy,you always know I love your company and I hope to see you again soon. Rufus, its been great getting to hang out with you as often as I have been recently. You are definately awesome and thanks for the help with the food. Roberto you are always great to have at ANY party ang its always a pleasure to have you and aura at my place. Wolfgang...you a bitch. Lol just kiddin man you know you rule. Cubbi and mae, was both unexpected and awesome to see you there. Just so you know your gift has been used a ton already.
Rensis I know drinking parties aren't really your thing but it meant a lot for you to be there yesterday. Bucky I'm sure I will see you soon and you are always welcome.

Well sadly aftet any good party is the sad realization that we have to go back to normal. I'm actually posting this from work. But I already miss all of you and we must party again sometime

Until then
KiTT.59

Hey hey All,
God I'm doing this all way too late. But anyway...

The party time
around 4pm - ???
Sunday September 16th

My Address if you are mapquesting the directions to my house:
4053 97th St. Corona Ny 11368

By Train from 34th st [Penn station]:
.take the E train to 74th st Broadway [note. you will be traveling from manhattan to queens so it will take a little while]
.transfer at 74th to the main st. flushing bound 7 train and go for 2 stops to junction blvd.

If taking another manner of train gimmie a call and i will feed you the directions personally

Things to bring
.Hugs, Love and good times [remember to bring enough for everyone :p]
.Booze i will be getting some but more never hurt, if you wanna get it when over here thats cool too.
.if you are planning on sleeping over that is fine. anyone who is driving over as i said in the vid IS NOT LEAVING unless they are sober, i will be collecting the keys of anyone who drives here and plans on drinking.

if there are any other questions feel free to contact me. till then.

I was thinking of throwing a bday party. I want to do it on a weekend cause I know both that the monday my birthday is on is no good for me and a weekend may be better for people to come up. I'm planning for next sunday but as of now that is subject to change. I have already talked to a few of you, but for those who haven't reached me plz feel free to txt me or just leave a comment on my journal and I will keep you posted. So until I next hear from ya have a good one y'all.

KiTT.59
"3 days left till legal drinking...hoo..ray?"

Figured i would Post a Vid to show al of you the new Place :p

...Don't really know what to say about today,
Not even much more to say today that asnt been said 100 times already. I cant say that typing things from my head to the compter has ever had muh merit to me but i will do my best to bear it for the sake of right now i feel kinda better just seeing my rambling thoughts on the computer screen.
Diana and i got in a fight today over some roommate shit. Just the usual crap that occours when you put together friends and money. It never really works out. Though 99% of the time it is nicer to have company in your home that you know. Its over now tho. Things are for the most part back to normal [cept mabye for Dianas mom n' Dad not liking me anymore] but as long as Di and me can patch shit up i don't really care what her parents think. I mean i know what my Dad would tell me if i told him what was occouring so i guess im glad NEITHER of us listen to our folks *smiles slightly*
In apartment news right now we got the electrical sockets changed out to good ones the breaker is up and ready and our fridge is back to tip top shape, always good to have a house filled with essentials that work *chances another smile*. I plan on making a small video and posting it soon, be patient with me please there is so much to do. ^^;
Other thatn that i cant wait to see ho everyone is doing, hope al my frends will be at AC hit me up if you are and cant wait to see you there. hmm what else is there for now...

Much love to all the cool jersy friends. all this totally made me laugh cause its so true :p

.Jersey Friends.

FRIENDS: Tell you not to do something stupid when drunk

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will post 360 degree security so you dont get caught

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FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Call your parents drunk as hell and tell them about the fat chick you tried to pick up

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FRIENDS: Hope the night out drinking goes smoothly, and hope that no one is late for the ride home.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Know some wild shit will happen, and set up rally points and an E & E route.

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FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will be sitting next to you saying, Damn...that shit was fun "

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FRIENDS: Cry with you.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: laugh at you

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FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Steal each other ' s stuff so often nobody remembers who bought it in the first place.

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FRIENDS: Are happy that someone picked up a one night stand and leave them alone.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will Crawl naked into the room with a camera and hope for the tag team.

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FRIENDS: Know a few things about you.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct quotes from you.

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FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that ' s what the crowd is doing.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

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FRIENDS: Would knock on your door.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Walk right in and say, "I'm home!"

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FRIENDS: Will try and talk to the bouncer when you get tossed out of the bar.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will cowboy up and go after the bouncer for touching you on the way out.

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FRIENDS: Will wish you had enough money to go out that night, and are sorry you couldn't come.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will share their last dollar with you, drag you along, and try to steal free drinks all night.

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FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say, "Bitch, you better drink the rest of that shit, you know we don't waste. That's alcohol abuse!!!" HAHAHAHA !!!!

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FRIENDS: Want the money they loaned you back next week.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Can't begin to remember who owes who money after taking care of each other for so long.

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FRIENDS: Will say "I can't handle Tequila anymore".

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will say "okay, just one more..." and then 2 minutes later "okay, just one more!".

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FRIENDS: Will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will knock them the Fuck out!!

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FRIENDS: Will tell you "They'd take a bullet for you."

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will actually take a bullet for you.

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FRIENDS: Will ignore this

NEW JERSEY FRIENDS: Will repost this

LOLs,
Not too much to report, waiting for paychecks this week. one tommorow, one thursday, and finally going to be getting my vacation check. *rolls around in the potential monies!!!*

Till then i will be playing Neverwinter Nights 2!!!
Wanted it forever, never got around to buying it. Hell its the entire reason i bought this computer! Totally worth the wait too, i played all afternoon and i only stopped to get on here and post about it :p

Got so much to do here. Need furniture, need curtains, Dresser, clothes hangers...hell i need to take a shower, but F that action, its time to go back to NeverWinter :p

Okies All,
Its time to learn something the panther loves to do. That thing is put the past behind him. Thats right, no matter ho poorly something is dealt with i can honestly say that after it is over i feel no need to mention it or badmouth anyone. In total truth and honesty is this because im a good person...not really. Its actually because i dont have the attention span to hold grudges...that being said its time for the quote of the week...

"So, the biggest new news...
Is that I'm FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
Of any and all roommates, that is. ^.^
On Sunday, Kitt, Justin, and Nothingkat (along with Diana in tow) all moved out of here into their own (very nice) apartment, with Kitt coming back to pick up a last few things on Monday. And I have been enjoying sweet, delicious peace and quiet ever since!
Oh my god, its positively orgasmic... *makes the Starburst 'berries and cream' guy sound* There's, like, no loud tv or music playing when I go to bed, nor still again when I wake up in the middle of the night at 4:00 am... (oh wait, I don't do that anymore, cause there's nothing waking me up, lol!), nor people passed out in the living room but with the tv still on at full blast, when I get up in the morning to go to work. And when I come home, there's actually nobody sitting there using all of my shit, so that I actually can! And furthermore, I can actually go out of the livingroom, without fear that somebody will up and take it over again, for more than five whole minutes! I haven't seen any ECW Wrestling, nor motherfucking DOA, nor searched in vain for the tv remote control under the blankets of a still-sleeping person at 6:00 pm in days! Bliss!!!"

Now boys and girls im not going to pretend that this caught me all of guard, nor am i going to say that this is entirely untrue. Yes we did do all of the things listed here at one point or another, some with a higher frequency some only a coupla times. That was the only thing that really got me to be honest bout the whole post, was if you really read it, Justin NK and yours truly were the only ones at fault while there was no remark of anything that could have been improved on any of our behalves. Im not mad tho...*grins* and the reason im not mad is because now its my turn. *game show host music plays* so first lets start with the yotes post bout us.
1. Music
True Justin and NK as well as myself are very big fans of music and do play it all the time. However in the later hours of the evening it was always turned down or the three of us would resort to headphones. The headphones were actually more of a symptom of the tv being too loud in the afternoon and evening for us to have a chance of beathign it out, i tell ya something man those battlestar cruisers sure are loud XD
2. TV Volume
I wont even hear of this one for unless i was already at the tv it was taken for the reaminder of the evening. It was never at full blast, and always got turned down when everyone was sleeping. meanwhile i have been woken up to. Pac Man, Wario Ware, God Of War, Zelda, etc, etc, etc.
3. People Sitting there "using all my shit"
If anyone had any problems whatsoever they would certainly have been welcome to take all their posessions and use them in THE ROOM THEY HAD. I as a dweller in the living room for more than two years am the one who should have been having issues with spacing. but i dealt better than someone who had the space and privacy of his own room, lemme bottle my tears, there are those who need them more than me.
4"I can actually go out of the livingroom, without fear that somebody will up and take it over again, for more than five whole minutes!"
*FALLS TO THE GROUND UNCONTROLLABLY LAUGHING*...Now that that is out of the way lemme see if i can think of a solution...got it. ask to keep it quiet at the house for a few days cause you are not in the mood for company, you know, like i used to for those furmeets that we made it too hard to have [my what animals we were to that poor boy, right kids?]
5.ECW & DOA?
.Battlestar
.Stargate [SG1 and Atlantis. I only know there are two cause i used to have to sit through SCI FI MEETS]
.The Tudors
.Breakin 2
.Xanadu
.Dr Tran & Actual Asian Male

...Need I go on, diddnt think so

As i said im not mad, and i truly am not. As i also said there was a paragraph about how we have moved into a new place and are doing very well. This is true, and i promise to have pictures up soon. All i was trying to do was say a few things to kinda kick out some of the tension in the same way that mr. yote quite obviously did. Its true, ive been there for 2 years, and was q's first new roommate of the three here and we both know each other fairly well. Im not surprised that the things that came up came up because we have been doing the same things for about 2 years, some things have changed and some have'nt, and it just happens that the same things that make us unique and likeable at first can grind in badly after a long time. We both had our gripes at times, but the fact is when it comes down to it that we all had our time in that place but now its time to write new and, hopefully, grander chapters in the stories of our lives.

So to Q [and benny, dont think i forgot him :p] good luck in your next move i hope you two have an easy time of it, keep in touch. Im sure i will be round sometime to visit it. oh yea and a final question pretaining to your post. at the bottome you say "*Crosses paws*" sounds cute i know but wouldnt that be the human equivalent of crossing HANDS insted of Fingers? *laughs* had to bust balls one more time :P
And to all of you out there who notice this post there will bee a few more coming up, as you can see fromt his i am feeling wordy agian and cant wait to hear from all of ya...and until next time remember, wether i love ya or hate ya when you gotta say something i will have something to say too. *grins*

Till then all, much love
Kitt.59

...to post a something on this crazy journal of mine. i mean i havent posted very faithfully i dont know...EVER. but i guess i owe everyone who dosent hear from me an update on how things are going in the world of the panther. lemme just have a smoke and a trip to the toilet and i will fill all of you fine guys and girlies in on my workings.

[walks away form the comp to the wonderous potty room]...and never returns

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMH0bHeiRNg

just when you thought i couldnt embarrass you guys more
i am going to talk to belic bout doing this for FF

I mean its all i can really feel right now. I really dont wanna and I am even worse at hiding it but its really true. I should really just shut in until it goes away but i dont want to get into the habit of doing ABSOLUTELY nothing agian.

I miss my boyfriend, plain and simple and it is really beginning to hurt. the last time seeing him was far too short to enjoy and now i only miss him more. Whatsmore he still has yet to find work and it is beginning to get on my nerves. What can i do at this point tho, nothing. I cant be mad cause he tells me he is trying but at the same time i am adament about him not moving around on my money until he finds work of his own...does it have to be something substancial. NO!!! no it does not i just want to know he is trying.
It really is beginning to hurt me and i dont know what to do. if i leave him at mikes in CT mike loves him and will move him around and that isnt going to help and if he dosent someone else will. i dont want to send him back home cause i know that would do way more harm than good to either of us especially him...fuck it, i will sleep on it and hopefully in the morning things will look a bit clearer and i will be able to make a decision.

beowulf a close friend of mine is in a tight spot too and i talked with him bout it today...wont talk too much bout it here cause im not one to do such things without permission but i hope he is doing ok and things only get better.

thanks much to boomer and diana for getting me out of the house and out of my sulking mood a bit...i know i diddnt tell you why i was sulky but im sure you had your suspicions that it was something like this...i need a smoke now

later all

KiTT.59